I had my birthday. I am now 18. I hung out with John, Burrito and Juliann. We didn't do much but it was the best birthday I have ever had. Watched Devil's Rejects and ate Chipolte.

Had a Saint Pattys bash at Tess' and stayed over. Taking part in illegal activity is always a good time. Burrito got sick but before that he apparently used someones foot as a telephone. Jon is my new favorite drunk.. he's going to marry me and John to Lamb of God. Those car rides were extreme. Holy fuck. I got to see Tia and Emily before they got wasted. I got to chill with Amber which was bomb. Took lots of pics with John and Amber. Talked about old tv shows and potatoes with bacon. Talked to Tess' mom about movies and conspiracies.

I still hate my job. I work one day last week. Now they're having me work three nights in a row (thurs-sat)? Fuck that shit. I hate that damn place. 

I may see Chelle tonight if she's not going to Mandy's. If not, this day was pretty stupid. 

It's getting nicer out. I want summer more than anything.

We'll take it easy, tigers in the cage,
Pacing on our pads, and waiting,
For the time to come in reverie.
Our lazy bones ache for our dowry.

Can’t hold on to the thrill.
So I hope you find your will to follow through.
What we invented, I am now ending.
Hold on to who you love.
We are dry and blown like dust since we were young.
What we invented, I am now ending.

The closest thing we had to royalty,
A chance to break our parents’ pattern.
You chose to keep your teenage tragedy,
In lieu of their romantic pallet.
Play tender like a new born baby would.
Play tender to the night is over.
I’m leaving you to nurture cherished wounds,
And care for it just like your lover, yeah.

Can’t hold on to the thrill.
So I hope you find your will to follow through.
What we invented, I am now ending.
Hold on to who you love.
We are dry and blown like dust since we were young.
What we invented, I am now ending.

Can’t hold on to the thrill.
So I hope you find your will to follow through.
What we invented, I am now ending.
Hold on to who you love.
We are dry and blown like dust since we were young.
The morning's over, the day is in full swing.

I know you're busy,
But please won't you come visit me?
You are an aimless ghost;
You haunt your bag of bones.
The wolf messed with your vision.
He is sitting in your kitchen,
While you sleep tonight.
He will eat you young,
And you will act surprised.

Can’t hold on to the thrill.
So I hope you find your will to follow through.
What we invented, I am now ending.
Hold on to who you love.
We are dry and blown like dust since we were young.
What we invented, I am now ending.

Can’t hold on to the thrill.
So I hope you find your will to follow through.
What we invented, I am now ending.
Hold on to who you love.
We are dry and blown like dust since we were young.
The morning's over, the day is in full swing. 

today: field trip, john, concert

saturday: work, john, possibley chelle

sunday: work

contimplate if i should stay
sit with time
the days blow away
broken rhyme 
records song
school yard
ive been here too long
and all along the crumpled leaves
blue jays sing that tune to me
as if i were one of them
i reapeat their old hym
hear that beat
on the street
busses go
shovel snow 
and all girls 
chase the boys
bells ring
no more noise
time goes on 
we grow dim
rain drops fall
but don't wash our sins
nights go up
killing the sun
we grow cold
everyone carry a gun
summers cigs
and still that tune
parties rave 
all through june
and to my dismay
that one hot night
i am where the broken bottle lay
out of sight

Last weekend I stayed over at Ryan's. We went to see a concert. His friends' band, High Society. 

Ryan stayed over last night. We saw Cloverfield. I don't care what anyone says, I love that movie. Then we went home and watched The Faculty because I was in an alien horror type of mood. Later this morning we watched The Warriors. After he left I took a shower and got out of the house. I hung out with Chelle, ate Jimmy Johns and bought a Justin Timberlake cd. While we were leaving we ran into Gene. I ran up to him and gave him one of those jump-up-and maul-you hugs. I guess he's back for good. That makes me happy. Now i'm hungry but everything my mom is listing off sounds bad. I really don't like my job and I want to quit. I also heard Hunter's out of the hospital. I found out why he was in there and i'm disappointed in him again

for xmas i got:
- poncho/blanket
- clothing, shoes, jewelry
- makeup
- gift card to hot topic
- across the universe soundtrack
- ameile dvd
- photo shop
--- probably a few other things i'm forgetting to mention

tomorrow i get to see ryan. i am so stoked!